Hey everyone! Welcome to my page. My name is Erin Bachman and I’m from Nashville TN. I am married to the love of my life and we have two children, a beautiful daughter and a beautiful son. My husband and I own and operate multiple companies in which our individual and shared passions combine. One of our companies is an all women’s addiction treatment center in Arizona. We opened this facility when we decided that our purpose was to dedicate our lives to helping those who suffer from the same battles we faced. My husband, Justin, is extremely passionate about the sport of Jiu Jitsu, which led us to creating a Jiu Jitsu clothing brand. Lastly, we own and operate a Farm Store in Missouri, which sells Bachman’s Cattle Farm Meat.

If you have landed on my website then that means you have landed onto the page that was created from a passion and dream of mine.  I have always loved fashion and expressing myself through the clothes and outfits I wear. I also love being raw, real and talking about the issues each of us face as humans. I wanted to create a place that was safe for people to come to my page and receive inspiration, authenticity, and a drive to learn to love yourself a little bit more.

With all of that being said I’ll give you a little background about myself. Many years ago I suffered from a drug and alcohol addiction. I was lost and completely broken. It was all I could do to just survive one more day and numb the pain that I felt so deeply in the core of my being. I was hopeless and believed that I would die from my addiction. I had many lousy attempts at recovery and I failed many times over. There were many times that I wasn’t willing to change everything, even though that’s exactly what I needed to do. My life had gotten so dark that I finally surrendered. By the grace of God I was given one more chance. That chance was the chance that saved my life. The longer I stayed clean and sober the more I began to realize what I was capable of. I began to realize that I was here for a reason.

At that time I didn’t quite know what that reason was but drinking and using wasn’t an option for me anymore, no matter how scary or painful life got. I believe people think that people can just get clean and sober and it all changes but that’s just the beginning. The next part is the work it takes to have continuous recovery and a life that is fulfilling. The next thing was facing Erin and learning to love her again. I met my husband along the way and we have had two amazing children. At the time I didn’t realize that God had also put my husband in my life for reasons greater then I could’ve ever imagined.  Along this path I realized my purpose was to help people just like me walk out of the darkness and into the light. My purpose was to show people that they are never too far-gone to turn back. I believe in miracles as I am one and so is my husband.  I decided to open an all women’s treatment center for tough cases like I was. And really, the tough cases just mean they have a lot of life and fight in them, and when the freedom of recovery sinks in, those women become unstoppable in the best ways possible.

To wrap it up I have dreamt about a day where I could connect fashion with my mental health. I absolutely love expressing myself through what I wear and love seeing others do the same.

I can’t draw anything but I can create a super cute outfit! 😘Throughout my recovery journey there are some days where depression and anxiety was so heavy telling me I couldn’t, that all I had was getting up and getting ready. Social media has also been an outlet for me as I’ve connected to some fabulous people that I never would’ve met. I want to connect to people who need to hear how worthy they are, I want to connect with other people who are trying their hardest to just have a human experience, I want to connect to people who want to be better, even if that means we are one big Hawt Mess. I want to connect with people who also want to change the world for the better! Being a Hawt Mess isn’t such a bad thing. It’s about embracing it and rocking the true you no matter what it looks like. I thank you very much for being a part of this journey with me. Welcome

To the Hawt Mess Express.

I don’t know where we are going but I know we are going together.